Grasp for birthday candles in the junk drawer. Dig fingernails into white wax while tonguing through architecture on the side table tasting for the copper menorah that stays out all year. What to do in the dark without power: remember all the postcards unsent. Keep trying all the light switches— desperate muscle memory. Lust for hot coffee. Pray for the first time in a long time about the wrong things. Watch battery percentages shrink— the only time that matters. Feel guilty for this anxiety, burning.