Colin Dodds is a writer. His work has appeared in more than 250 publications, been anthologized, nominated and shortlisted for numerous prizes, and praised by luminaries including Norman Mailer and David Berman. He lives in Brooklyn, New York, with his wife and daughter.
Leasing in the Leviathan
Everyone aspires to reality
Toothpaste coffee nausea spiked with what horrors
need be conjured to get out of bed so early
to genuflect at the turnstile, bow your pate
to the resistance of the revolving door and join
the surging maypole ring and daily exile
—Babylon the conference room
or the living room or both
You may ask Who’s grist for whose mill?
But every word is harmless, a kitten harness
Seeking innocence in the devil’s intestine
you learn a point of view
It slithers in with the climate control, subtle but where it grips
around genitals, sewers, tattoos, laws, things irrevocable
backed by the unthinkable
The faith you lose is only in yourself
Germs travel farther than voices
But gems travel farther still
Diamond-studded apex predators sell clowns by the pound
declare your bible another handful of kibble
and say the die is cast, but not to worry:
They’ll always need dancers to sell shackles
The World they invoke isn’t a place, but a tradition
Work hard—do your level best
Maybe you too can be a fragment
of something that once made sense
Revolving doors spin into varieties of nonexistence
First is the nonexistence of having been utterly expected
and accounted for, well ahead of time
The leviathan leaves the rest to conspiracy theories
folktales, tylenol of the masses recycled from scraps
excreted by the honesty matrices of men who, for shelter,
refer to themselves as corporations
Old moral codes hover like ozone
over the matte-finish desk pills and sofa pills
of the Fortune 500’s predator-shepherded prison armies
creatures whose wisdom is laziness, who agree to die
agree that no they were never fully born
silent with solvency, content to hang back
and have someone else climb up on the altar
whispering only the word Taxpayer with conviction
Through us the world takes on a shape
that misshapes every one in it
The shape, the dolorous mother of the smothering dollar
offers insight to the would-be escapees
a hint of a model no photograph can contain
But the model and the model maker
operate on principles so different
that to say they each operate on principles
is the polite lie of a tired mind
There perhaps is the daylight
there perhaps the path
to the beast’s exposed throat