Theodicy in Pure Barre

If we sit to work or pray, the back curves in all the wrong places. Take inventory: straighten the spine; tuck the hips forward. Assumption: Lactic acid builds and pools in stillness. Solution: Always move. Bend. Do not sleep. Soldier says, Remember Maslow’s Hierarchy. I say I do not have the strength to rest or […]

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Brazilian Wax with Myriam

  Moses chanted a song for the men; he would chant for them and they would answer him. And Miriam chanted a song for the women. —Rashi We take our clothes off differently depending on who is watching. Myriam says, Take everything off below the waist. She stands in the corner— maroon scrubs, black bun piled […]

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Intersections

I am running alone in a park near my apartment. A cop pulls up, sits in his car, windows tinted. The air is violent in my lungs. He watches me run three laps before he calls me over—asks if I mind if he closes the park gate. Asks if I’m military, pointing at my tattoos, […]

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Song In Spite of HB2

    I am not           watching the news                  We are                the news the ones that break            and help break    laws A colleague warned me     before the protest      they’re taking names if you want to go quietly instead             and I see        job loss                    run rumored and rampant     but I am young     […]

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Pretty

  [photo “Nikki” by Susan kae Grant]     When I was younger, all I wanted was to be pretty. * Mother looks at me, concerned: Are you sick? No, I say. I just don’t have makeup on. All day she is suspicious. * At the Women in Business conference in the tiny rural town […]

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For Jonas

Grasp for birthday candles in the junk drawer. Dig fingernails into white wax while tonguing through architecture on the side table tasting for the copper menorah that stays out all year. What to do in the dark without power: remember all the postcards unsent. Keep trying all the light switches— desperate muscle memory. Lust for […]

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Song for a 25th Birthday

Buy two basil plants—let one live. Strip the other naked with your teeth. Cherish your lemon zester. Look for bodies that know this pleasure. Take note of the cellulite in your thighs; consider your normal BMI. There are places you will see that were never on your bucket list, like the inside of your bones […]

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