Cooper Spur: Part One

I had no idea when we left my boyfriend’s house in the seasonally recreational town of Government Camp on the side of Mt. Hood that we would end our evening at the highest point on the mountain reachable by trail, which explains why I ended up there with him, wearing a pair of old sneakers […]

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Fat Girl Thin

I’m 32 years old and, aside from a few years in High School, I’ve been fat my whole life.  My mother likes to say I’m a “sturdy girl.”  This pleases both of us, because it  forgives my fatness and conjures shared images of my hearty forebears digging potatoes from the icy ground and building craggy […]

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Stepping Westward

Stepping Westward

What is green in me
darkens, muscadine.
If woman is inconstant,
good, I am faithful to
ebb and flow, I fall
in season and now
is a time of ripening.
If her part
is to be true,
a north star,
good, I hold steady
in the black sky
and vanish by day,
yet burn there
in blue or above
quilts of cloud.
There is no savor
more sweet, more salt
than to be glad to be
what, woman,
and who, myself,
I am, a shadow
that grows longer as the sun
moves, drawn out
on a thread of wonder.
If I bear burdens
they begin to be remembered
as gifts, goods, a basket
of bread that hurts
my shoulders but closes me
in fragrance. I can
eat as I go.

– Denise Levertov

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Infertility: Part One

My gynecologist gave up on me. “I can’t help you,” she said. “Your endometriosis and PCOS make you a difficult case. You need to see the fertility clinic.” I wasn’t keen on additional medical intervention. The last three years had shown me enough of that. When my husband and I went off birth control, my […]

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Truss

The day I saw Brice again it was the end of September, long after he’d been shipped down to Green River Recovery Center in Southern California. I had been sitting in the corner of a coffee shop on Southeast Main and Grand at the time, waiting for my boyfriend to finish up at work and […]

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